30.7.07

Icaro



They sing to your soul
It heals you
It awakens you
It's a blessing

Not enough

Destroy your ego.

Stop reacting.

Start proacting.

Change the way you talk.

Change the way you act.

Change the way you think.

Share.

Share again.

You're still not sharing enough.


What do you want from me?!



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What do YOU want from YOU?!!!

29.7.07

All around and within..

  • Tiene algo dentro. Algo grande. Algo fuerte, increíble y muy lindo. Uhm. Quiere darlo... ni siquiera sabe lo que es. Solo sabe que cuando lo comparte es mejor. Cuando hay alguien ahí, lo ve mas claro. Tiene que ver con el otro? A veces parece que si, a veces parece que no. No esta claro. Que es? No sabe que es. No hay quien le diga que es ni como manejarlo. Pero justo anoche me contaba que esta vez le parecía que no tenia que ver con nadie, solo con ella... con ella misma. Entonces algo así como compartirlo con una parte de ella para verlo mejor... compartirlo con ella misma? A veces no la entiendo, pero me dijo algo así. Entiendes?
  • Ella esta loca. Que deje de tar filosofando/psicologizando/dando mente... se va a volver loca.
  • Si le dije. Me dijo que me decida. Que o esta loca o se esta volviendo loca o se va a volver loca.
  • Bueh.
  • Yo la entiendo un poco.
  • Tu no entiendes nada.. deja de hablar disparates. A ti lo que pasa es que te gusta el can.
  • Bueno! .. la voy a entender.
  • Deja eso.
  • Me gusta su mente, me gusta como piensa....
  • ... y ya!
  • Tu que sabes?
  • Te conozco..
  • Bueno..
  • No es tu tipo
  • Esto no tiene nada que ver con "tipo"
  • Entonces ahora buscas...
  • No estoy buscando nada! Apareció y ya. Entro a mi vida.. y ahora esta ahí y ya...
  • Y se va, no?
  • Si, se va... todo el mundo se va.
  • Como así...
  • Quien es permanente?
  • Bueno pero algunos somos constantes
  • Nadie es constante. Somos circunstancias, las relaciones lo son también. Crees que elegimos? No elegimos nada... si te crees "constante" en la vida de alguien, no te creas que es porque quieres y ya. Hay mas ahí.
  • Pero..
  • No! eso es así. Tienes el presente y ya. Si alguien se va o algo se acaba y te resientes, es por apego. Las razones que damos son explicaciones baratas, que hacemos desde nuestra ignorancia. La verdad es que no tenemos las razones, pero somos tan prepotentes, que no decimos "no se". No aceptamos, entonces dentro de la ansiedad que a veces provoca la incertidumbre buscamos razones idiotísimas. "No me quiere", "ahora es diferente", "cambió"... disparates. No hay que explicar el cambio. Todo cambia. Y ya... las razones nos son reveladas o explicadas en tiempos distintos. No cuando queramos... sino, cuando es. Dos horas, dos décadas...
  • Mejor no buscar explicaciones a nada entonces...
  • No es eso..
  • Entonces?!
  • Uf, que difícil lo tuyo. Déjalo ahí. Es increíble.
  • Pero se va...
  • ... we went over this already...
  • Te va a doler
  • Y? que me duela.
  • Anja?
  • Total... por peores cosas he sufrido. Si me duele es porque prefiero apegarme antes que disfrutar lo que ha llegado y dejarlo fluir. No dejarlo fluir, es matarlo. Quizá por eso me duela, porque estoy queriendo matar algo al querer evitar que fluya.
  • Te fuiste en una, eh?
  • Cállate. Sigue en lo tuyo...
  • No quieres?
  • Tu sabes que no.
  • Bueno..
  • Por donde andará?
  • ...
  • Deja llamar a ver...

"the number you have dialed..."

  • let go let go let go let go let go lt go...
  • entonces?
  • cállate! mira la luna...
  • uf, si...
  • let go let go let go...
  • no llores
  • déjame!
  • ok, ok..

(stands up, walks to the edge, stares at the sea...)

Thank you... espero que tu camino este lleno de luz. Agradezco que se haya cruzado con el mio. Pido humildad para aceptar tu ausencia, claridad para no olvidar y sabiduría para saber que hacer con lo que mefue dado a traves de ti.

  • Y eso?
  • No sé, me salió.
  • Ahh hahha...
  • Ehh..
  • Ok, no te quilles.
  • Duermete ya... y dejame.
  • Bueh.

(Keeps on staring. Void. Nothingness. Bliss. No time. No space. No self)

  • shhh, let go...
  • huh?! who's there..
  • shh... you asked for this, is what you've been waiting for... listen...
  • ... nice...
  • breathe in life, feel it all... it's all within
  • thank you
  • no need to speak nor think
  • ahhhh...
  • shhh

(Smiles, starts life... this time, awake)

27.7.07

Think away

Egg Behaviour




-An egg lives 12-24 hours after leaving the ovary
-Normally only one egg is released each time of ovulation
-Ovulation can be affected by stress, illness or disruption of normal routines
-Some women may experience some light blood spotting during ovulation
-Implantation of a fertilized egg normally takes place 6-12 days after ovulation
-Each woman is born with millions of immature eggs that are awaiting ovulation to begin
-A menstrual period can occur even if ovulation has not occurred
-Ovulation can occur even if a menstrual period has not occurred
-Some women can feel a bit of pain or aching near the ovaries during ovulation called mittelschmerz, which means "middle pain" in German
-If an egg is not fertilized, it disintegrates and is absorbed into the uterine lining

Thanks

... Maitreya, Buda, Jesús, Hermes, Krishna, Pitágoras, Pantanjali, Sócrates, Rama, Confucio, Marpa, Mitra, Paracelso, Lao-Tse, Tagore, Mahoma, Quetzalcoatl, Milarepa, Moisés, Ananda, Helena Petrovna Blavatsky, Mayeema, Baha´U´Llah, Yogananda Paramahansa, Alice A. Bailey, Aurobindo Ghose, Krishnamurti, Helena Roerich, Sivananda, Max Heindel, Mikhael Aivanhov, C.W. Leadbeater, Annie Besant, Vicente B. Anglada, Sri Ekkirala Krishnamacharya, Conny Méndez ...

Think twice




Pensamiento del 26/07/2007.

"No os lancéis a la ligera en aventuras amorosas, porque el poder de los lazos afectivos es terrible. Y el día en que os hayáis quemado por completo las alas, acusaréis al amor de ser la causa de todas vuestras desgracias. Pues no, solamente es la ignorancia sobre el tema del amor la que trae desgracias, no el amor en sí.Porque el amor es Dios. Por lo tanto, para vivir armoniosamente el amor, debemos primeramente amar a Dios e impregnarnos con sus vibraciones; después podemos, sin peligro, permitirnos amar a las criaturas. Aquél que está unido a la Fuente puede repartir su agua, porque ella se renueva sin cesar en él; pero si corta esta unión, pronto se convierte en un desierto porque sus reservas no son eternas. Otra imagen: el bañista que quiere salvar a un hombre que se está ahogando, hace lo posible para que éste se aferre a sus piernas, no a sus brazos, porque sino se ahogarían juntos. Si dais todo vuestro amor a los humanos, os perderéis con ellos. Abandonad por tanto vuestras piernas a los humanos y conservad vuestros brazos para el Señor."

Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov

23.7.07

About music...




Pensamiento del 22/07/2007.

"Melodía, armonía, sinfonía... La melodía se interpreta con una sola cuerda, se canta con unasola voz. Mientras que la armonía presupone la participación de varias cuerdas, de varias voces o de diversos instrumentos cuya combinacion es toda una ciencia. Así la melodía se halla más cercana al corazón, al sentimiento; la armonía está más bien unida al intelecto, al pensamiento. Pero ni la melodía, ni la armonía son completas por sí mismas. Para alcanzar la perfección, es preciso que el corazón, que habla a través de la melodía, consiga despertar el alma, y que el intelecto, que se expresa a través de la armonía, despierte al espíritu. Y con el alma y el espíritu entraremos en el ámbito de la sinfonía. Y es en la sinfonía que el hombre puede desarrollarse verdaderamente, porque alcanza a la dimensión cósmica del ser. La sinfonía representa todo el universo quecanta en coro: la música de las esferas..."

Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov

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Que bueno que estudie musica...
Thanks mom!

21.7.07

A traves de las vidas...

Yo a ti te conozco de antes
he visto esos ojos andantes
te conozco de antes

Tal vez de un tiempo en que
mi memoria no alcanza,
tal vez de un tiempo en que
no habitaba esta masa
tal vez en un tiempo en que
el lenguaje no hablaba
tal vez ni tiempo fue

Te conozco de antes
y esto me provoca pensarte
te conozco de antes

Cómo, cuando y donde fue
quiero saber preciso entenderlo
sera acaso la dama en mi sueños
o una revelacion que no entiendo
dime si lo sabes
no espero nada a cambio preciosa no,
no solo intento entender
porque al verte me fallan los pies
la lengua me pesa al hablar
tiemblo y sudo sin parar
creo que tus elementos al mezclarse en mi pueden estallar

te conozco de antes
he visto esos ojos andantes
te conozco de antes
y no es de cruzaros en la calle
te conozco de antes
y esto me provoca pensarte
te conozco

no nesecito mirarte pa' sentir
los destellos que nacen de tu ser
tus colores pintan mi cancion
y mi guitarra se convierte en ti...
acaricio tu cabello intentando acordes al azar
y regalas notas tan dulces que me inspiran cantar

te conozco de antes
he visto esos ojos andantes
te conozco de antes
y no es de cruzarnos en la calle
te conozco de antes
y no es escusa pa cantarte
te conozco de antes
no creas que intento conquistarte hoy

("De antes", Cultura Profetica)

16.7.07

Intimacy




The meaning of intimacy varies from relationship to relationship, and within a given relationship. Intimacy has more to do with shared moments than sexual interactions. Intimate feelings may be connected or confused with sexual arousal. Intimacy is linked with feelings of closeness, safety, trust and transparency among partners in a collaborative relationship. For intimacy to be sustainable and nourishing it also requires trust, transparency and rituals of connection. It is possible to compete over intimacy but that is likely to be self-defeating. Intimacy requires empathy - the ability to stand in the other's shoes.

Intimacy is both the ability and the choice to be close, loving and vulnerable. Intimacy requires identity development. You have to know yourself and your innards in order to share your self with another. Knowing yourself makes it possible to stand for yourself in an intimate relationship without taking over the other or losing yourself to the other. This ability to be separate and together in an intimate relationship and being okay with that is called self-differentiation. Lacking the ability to differentiate one self from the other is a form of symbiosis. This too is different from intimacy though to some that kind of dependent closeness may feel the same.

From a centre of self knowledge and self differentiation intimate behaviour joins family, close friends as well as those with whom one is in love. It dwells in a reciprocity, which builds on self-disclosure and candour. However, poor development of intimacy can lead to getting too close too quickly; struggling to find the boundary and to sustain connection; being poorly skilled as a friend, rejecting self-disclosure or even rejecting friendships and those who have them.

The main forms of intimacy are emotional intimacy and physical intimacy. Intellectual intimacy, familiarity with a person's culture and interests, is common among friends. Members of religious or philosophic groups may also perceive a "spiritual intimacy" in their commonality. Some describe intimacy with the homonymous "into me see". Intimacy can also be identified as knowing someone in depth, knowing many different aspects of a person or knowing how they would respond in different situations, because of the many experiences you've shared with them.

Some lose themselves in the first flush of love. 'Falling in love' is a little different from intimacy per se. Some are engulfed by their families in a way that is not close or intimate even though it is described that way by those who are consumed by their family. The first flush of love can be like that too, but slowly the individual will assert themselves and this test the willingness of both to be intimate.

It is worth distinguishing intimate relationships from strategic relationships. Intimate behaviour occurs in the latter but it is governed by a higher order strategy, of which the other person may not be aware. For example getting close to someone in order to get something from them or give them something. That 'something' might not be offered so freely if it did not appear to be an intimate exchange and if the ultimate strategy had been visible at the outset.

Secrets are generally hostile to intimacy in a committed relationship, but not knowing of the existence of a secret, one can continue to believe there is intimacy. Maintaining the illusion of intimacy may be a strategic skill where there is an imbalance of power brought about by the existence of a secret. Knowledge is the currency of power. Betrayal of intimacy can be a traumatic experience. The person can feel cheated as well as humiliated.


Taken from, Wikipedia

But wait, it gets better. Check it out...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intimate_relationship

"Just" friends?

Just Friends by Chet Baker on Grooveshark

"Just Friends"
(Billie Holiday, Chet Baker)


Just friends, lovers no more
Just friends but not like before

To think of what we've been
And not to kiss again
Seems like pretending
It isn't the ending

Two friends drifting apart
Two friends but one broken heart
We loved, we laughed, we cried
Suddenly love died
The story ended
But we're just friends

Two friends drifting apart
Two friends but one broken heart

We loved, we laughed, we cried
Suddenly love died
The story ended
But we're just friends

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Come on... "just" friends?...
as if it wasn´t enough...

12.7.07

Comments

Recibi esto esta mañana...

Hey!

After I read "Making Friends" I was looking for the comments section to leave one -I didn't find it.

If I had I would have said something like this: "I love the world you live in".

Un beso.


Thank you. Te quiero muchisimo.

Prefiero los emails... mas personales, mas completos, mas lindos en general. Uhm... pero... I guess que podemos intentar lo de los comments again.

Here we go...

11.7.07

Making Friends

i smile
-hola, yo sabia que te iba a ver
-si? (smiles)
-si (debe de pensar que estoy loca)

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i smile
-hola! adivina que?
-sabias que me ibas a ver de nuevo? (smiles)
-sip (definitivamente piensa que estoy loca)

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-hola!
-ey :)
-voy a compartir algo contigo.. solo porque no te conozco, ok?
-ok, dale
-pues... (y a medida que iba terminando de contarle todo lo raro que me paso, a este extraño de sonrisa dulce, algo me decia "now you´ve done it. callate y corre!")
-oh
-sip, asi mismo (uf que hice..) pues nada, nos vamos?
-ok

corri hacia la puerta, rumbo a mi vehiculo y senti que me tocaron el brazo..
-adios :)
-bye (despidete niña!)

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y asi empezo una linda amistad

The Fountain








"Every shadow, no matter how deep, is threatened by morning light."

10.7.07

Cambio o camuflaje?


"Explicadle a un gato que no debe comer más ratones; hará «miau»…(traducción: de acuerdo). Pero si mientras le estáis sermoneando, oye en alguna parte un ligero crujido, os deja, sin vacilar ni miramiento alguno, ¡para ir a cazar al ratón! Así es su naturaleza. No os hagáis pues demasiadas ilusiones cada vezque sermoneáis a un gato para que no coma más ratones –simbólicamente hablando. ¿Qué quiero con ello deciros? Que cada persona viene a la tierra con unos gustos, unas tendencias y un temperamento determinados. Por más que haga, por muy grande que sea su voluntad, no podrá cambiarlo. Así pues, estudiad detenidamente la naturaleza de los seres que frecuentáis, con el fin de no esperar de ellos que manifiesten lo que no pueden tener; se esforzarán, quizás, para complaceros, pero esto no durará, porque no se puede pedir anadie que vaya contra lo que es su verdadera naturaleza."

Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov

A dream come true



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6.7.07

The art of...




CONVERSATION

Conversation is the verbalization of concepts involving abstractions and concrete objects which make up the reality in which we reside.

A conversation is communication by two or more people, or sometimes with one's self, often on a particular topic. Conversations are the ideal form of communication in some respects, since they allow people with different views of a topic to learn from each other. A speech, on the other hand, is an oral presentation by one person directed at a group.

Those engaging in conversation naturally relate the other speaker's statements to themselves, and insert themselves (or some degree of relation to themselves, ranging from the replier's opinions or points to actual stories about themselves) into their replies. For a successful conversation, the partners must achieve a workable balance of contributions. A successful conversation includes mutually interesting connections between the speakers or things that the speakers know. For this to happen, those engaging in conversation must find a topic on which they both can relate to in some sense.

Conversation analysis is a branch of sociology which studies the structure and organization of human interaction, with a more specific focus on conversational interaction.

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SEDUCTION

In sociology, seduction is the process of deliberately enticing a person into an act. It can be used seriously or jokingly, frequently refers to sexual behavior, and may refer to an act that the other may later regret and/or would normally not want to do. Famous seducers from history include Cleopatra, Giacomo Casanova, and the fictional character Don Juan.

Seduction is the use of temptation and enticement, often sexual in nature, to attract or influence the behavior of another. Traditionally, the word implied leading someone astray, as when a man lured a woman into a sexual relationship[citation needed]. In contemporary usage, however, seduction is used more broadly as a synonym for the act of charming someone--male or female--by an appeal to the senses, olefactory or visual, for instance. The seducing agent may even be nonhuman, e.g., music or food.

Seduction is a popular motif in legend and literature. According to later interpretations, the biblical Eve was a classical seductress who enticed Adam to eat the forbidden fruit; the Sirens of Greek myth lured sailors to their death by utilizing symbolically feminine wiles, as did Cleopatra who beguiled both Julius Caesar and Marc Antony. Famous male seducers, their names synonymous with sexual allure, range from Casanova to James Bond.

In biblical times, because unmarried females who have lost their virginity have also lost much of their value as marriage prospects, the Old Testament Book of Exodus specifies that the seducer must marry his victim or pay her father to compensate him for his loss of the marriage price: "And if a man entice a maid that is not betrothed, and lie with her, he shall surely endow her to be his wife. If her father utterly refuse to give her unto him, he shall pay money according to the dowry of virgins."

English common law defined the crime of seduction as a felony committed "when a male person induced an unmarried female of previously chaste character to engage in an act of sexual intercourse on a promise of marriage." A father had the right to maintain an action for the seduction of his daughter (or the enticement of a son who left home), since this deprived him of services or earnings.

In more modern times, Frank Sinatra was charged in New Jersey in 1938 with seduction, having enticed a woman "of good repute to engage in sexual intercourse with him upon his promise of marriage. The charges were dropped when it was discovered that the woman was already married."

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Get it?
Do you really get it?

balance












la balanza no se inclina
sin embargo yo estoy de un lado
y del otro nada/nadie
y no se inclina
y no se mueve

equilibrio sin sentido

un equilibrio sin sentido un tanto desconcertante
"si no lo reconozco no lo veo"
pues algo hay que no veo
algo ahi mantiene esta balanza inmovil
estable
continua
y del otro lado le pido a mis ojos que vean
"no tiene que ver con los sentidos"

cierro los ojos y me adentro
bien dentro
de
mi?
vuelvo a ver la balanza
y yo de un lado
y de aquel...

y es simbolico
y no es otro
soy yo tambien

ying


yang


ying


yang


como un metronomo

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hey, sorry, it makes sense to me ;)

2.7.07

"to do" list

- renovar el pasaporte
- tapizar el mueble azul, a un azul mas claro
- comprarle comida a akira
- llamar a mami
- comprar jabon
- confirmar las clases del sabado
- pagar la renta
- arreglar el agujero que tiene el frente de mi carro
- montar el fregadero (albañil)


same day, different year

- mandar a renovar el pasaporte
- comprar otro escritorio
- lavar la pecera
- llamar a papi
- comprar medias
- hacer mi CV
- pedirle el dinero a papi
- arreglar mi cuarto
- pintar el baño (hablar con tia)

(to be continued...)